Thoughts #7- Change

After posting my recent Quote Friday, it got me to thinking about my life and what's next. 

Am I going to be happy? Will I have the same friends as I do now? How will I see myself a year from now?

I can only wait for the answers to those questions. 

One of the things I fear the most in life would have to be change. 

I fear that if I let things go out of control, or out of my control, I will not be able to live with myself.

I cannot imagine doing one thing wrong and regretting it for the rest of my life. 

When things are going well--like right now--I want it to stay that way.

The thought of it changing scares me.

It's a fifty-fifty chance that something will go wrong...and most of the time, it does.

I know, I know; "change is good"

But to me, change is bad. If I like things the way they are and if I like how things are going, is it fair for it to change to something I would never want? 

All I know is that I'm satisfied with my life at the moment and the only changes I want are minor, but good changes.

Unfortunately, I don't get to control it.

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Re-Post: Friends or Frenemies?

This week has brought many, many memories. I've already posted two "re-posts" in celebration of my blog's one year anniversary. Those two posts are two of my all time favorite posts on this blog.
Today I'm re-posting an old post back from November of 2010--when I was confused about my friendship with my friend Eva. Sometimes it's hard when someone you know and love changes to someone you don't want to know at all...

"You must be the change you wish to see in the world."

-Mahatma Ganhdi

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Re-Post: "You're beautiful, You're Beautiful, You're Beautiful, It's true...'"

My second re-post for the celebration of my blog's one year anniversary. This is my second all-time favorite post:

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My confidence is at an all time low. You probably hear these things all the time. But it's a completely different thing for me. All through junior high, I was nothing but confident.

Update- Dieting, Track and Field

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After weeks of conditioning,mandatory practice, or "tryouts", has started.
The workouts are intense, and literally take my breath away.
Just yesterday we had to run three 300s, two 200s, and one 100. If you don't know how much these are, well...Google it.
We had no rest in between the sprints, and we definitely had no water breaks.
But as tiring and as hard as those workouts were, I love track so much that I'm not even close to quitting. Plus, the hot, sweaty, athletic guys keep me motivated.


As for my diet, it's easy and actually kind of fun. I don't really understand why women complain about diets so much. Unless it is something you need to do for health reasons, it's completely optional.

www.nym.org/

I'm going on a "healthy" diet.
Meaning I will reduce my soda intake, salt intake, and especially sugar intake.
I only indulge in something "unhealthy" about once or twice a week. Not to mention that I'm trying to get all my nutritional daily values, without exceeding it, and drinking at least eight glasses of water every day.
I'm taking vitamins too.
It's really exciting to see how my body takes it so well (no, I am not losing any weight here) and it really transfers on the track. I recommend any athlete--or just anyone at all--to get in-shape by a good diet.

And just to throw it out there, my obsession number 156132 is the (future) big rapper Novi Novak. Look him up, no matter who you are, you will love him.