Friday, December 31, 2010

"To wish you were someone else is to waste the person you are."
-Author Unknown

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Thoughts #5- Size Doesn't Matter


This isn't going to be one of those typical stories telling you that you are perfect the way you are and that you shouldn't listen to what society thinks.

Because we all know that, and if you don't, you should.

This is me ranting. About how so many people think that skinny is unhealthy and that a "real woman" isn't thin. That it's okay to say "You need to eat!" to a thin person, and not think it's rude.


Just because we are thin doesn't mean we starve ourselves.
Just because we are thin, doesn't mean we have an eating disorder.
Just because we are thin, doesn't mean we are unhealthy.
And most importantly...
just because we are thin, does not mean we have easy lives and we don't have to worry about what we eat.

I'm 5"3 and 103 pounds.
My height is because my mother is short.
My weight is because I have a lot of muscle.

But never have I starved myself, made myself throw up, or taken laxatives. 
I may eat healthy, but that doesn't mean I'm always "dieting".

People assume things like that too easily. Some people are naturally skinny.
There is no such thing as "too skinny" if you are completely healthy.
I understand if someone is suffering from anorexia or some other disorder. But if the person is completely fine, let them be skinny!

There is a clear difference between an anorexic person and a normally thin person.
Anorexia
Naturally Thin

If people say size doesn't matter to girls with a bigger body, why doesn't it apply to girls with thinner bodies?

It makes me so angry when people say that thin girls are gross and unhealthy. What about the overweight or obese people who are at risk for many diseases?
Is that what I need to be to get everyone's approval?

People are too close minded and ignorant.

I refuse to change my lifestyle to meet other's standards. 
I love my healthy, naturally thin body and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

10 Favorites of 2010

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Mascara
 Covergirl's Lash Blast Length mascara makes my eye lashes so long, it's scary!

 
Movie
My Sister's Keeper is the best movie I have seen this year.It's so touching, inspirational, and sad. It's a truly unforgettable movie.


Blog
No doubt about it, redcarpet-fashionawards.com is my favorite blog...period. I have been so addicted to it. I love her opinion about what celebrities wear, how they wear it and who designed it. Her blog is also a great way to discover new designers.


Celebrity
I wouldn't be Minty if I didn't mention Shemar Moore at least once a month on my blog. All this year I have gone on and on about his sexy body and his amazing acting skills. I hate to be one of those girls who gets obsessed with a celebrity, but when it comes to Shemar Moore, I can't help it.

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 Song
Kate Voegele singing "Hallelujah" almost made me cry. Her voice is so beautiful, so breathtaking. She hits every note just right. I used to come home from school everyday and the first thing I did was listen to this song. It's just so amazing.

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Nail Polish
I have so many that it's too difficult to pick a favorite. But my favorite brand has to be Nicole by OPI.

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Bra
I thought I'd be really random with this one. 
My number one, favorite bra is the Emma Extreme Air Pushup Bra from Aerie. Of course this isn't something I wear everyday, but a little push up is nice. Especially when it bumps you up a whole bra size!

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T.V. Show
Not only is my favorite actor, Shemar Moore, in Criminal Minds, but it's an all around amazing show. The cases get so emotional and intense. I never want to miss a minute of it! Every episode is something so new and interesting. 
Oh, and did I mention that the incredibly attractive Shemar Moore is in it?

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Store
Definitely Forever21. No other store can ever compete with it. 
The affordable prices, the good quality, the great deals, the cute clothes, what more could you ask for?


Moment
The day I woke up a better, confident, happier person was one of my favorite moments in 2010.


Sunday, December 26, 2010

My New Years Resolutions


My second one:
Be more confident in myself.
There is always that voice telling me "You're beautiful."
But then there is always that voice telling me I'm not.

I actually never had a problem with this until last summer when I went to Wisconsin for a track meet and a few of the guys thought it would be fun to yell nasty things at me. 


That completely thrashed my self-esteem for a while. I wore more makeup, I perfected my hair where ever I went and I even started to dress more provocatively. 

After finding myself, and watching a few episodes of The Tyra Show (laughs),  my confidence was incredibly boosted.

But my New Years Resolution will be to stay confident and to believe in myself more.

I am beautiful, everyone is,  and it's time I start seeing that.

Besides, being insecure is too much work.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

A Holiday Message from Minty!


Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all my readers! I hope it's amazing and you get everything you want. 
Let us all be thankful that God has blessed us with another amazing Christmas to celebrate with our family, friends, and loved ones.
And let us keep in mind the people who are less fortunate, let's hope they have a beautiful Christmas/Holiday as well.

Friday, December 24, 2010

 
"The mind is everything. What you think you become. "
~Buddha

My Best Moments of 2010


This year has gone by so fast. I can't believe it's about to be 2011!

It makes me go back to all the good times I had in 2010. All the wonderful things I was blessed with and got the opportunity to have. I want to share my first one with you...

Losing my house.
I really don't think I blogged about this, as I lost my house before I made this blog.

Losing my house was one of the hardest things I have ever had to deal with in my life. I was incredibly upset and shocked that we could no longer live in the place I called home. It's a feeling I never want to feel again.
You may ask "Why is this one of your best moments then?".
Well, it made me realize how blessed I am. It also lifted a huge weight off my shoulders.

Many people would look at this as a bad moment, but a little part of me is glad it happened. I sometimes look at this in the wrong way and I get angry that my life has turned out this way. When I lived in my old house, I was always worried. Always scared. I was always anxious about the day that we would just not be able to afford it anymore. When we'd have to give it up.
I never wanted to be in a position where I was homeless. That scared me more than anything.

When we finally left the house, I was worry free. I slept better than I had ever slept in five years.  I woke up with a feeling of freedom. Like I never had to worry about a thing ever again.
It made me cry to think about how horrible I felt when I was at that house. Now, I can live a great, peaceful life.

It made me stronger, happier, it made me a better person. I know realize how lucky I am. Now I can start over and make something good out of what has happened.

I'll never forget my old house, but this move, this step-up in life, will forever be one of the best moments of my life.

Thursday, December 23, 2010


These are to die for.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

My New Years Resolutions

My first one?
Post more often.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Why My Bestfriend's Parents Wouldnt Allow Me to See Her

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I'm just now realizing that I never made a post about why Eva's parent forbade me from seeing her. (To read my post from when I first learned that I wasn't to see Eva, click here, then come back and read this)
Well, she finally told me why.

Apparently I'm not "appreciative" of what they "do for me."
That whenever we got out I expect them to buy me things and pay for my movie tickets or drive me anywhere Eva and I go. And then after all that I'm not grateful enough.

I really don't even know what to say about that.
When Eva told me all this, all I said was that I had been friends with her for more than five years, I didn't think I had to still say "Thank you Ma'am", or "I appreciate it Sir".

To be honest, I don't care what they think is going on.
I know that whenever we go out, I buy my own tickets, I say "thank you" once I've been dropped off. I appreciate all they do for me whether I show it or not.

But if they want to assume shit like that, let them.

I have bigger problems in my life and this doesn't mean I'm losing Eva as a friend so why bother?

Saturday, December 18, 2010

The Voice of An Angel

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Alicia Keys has the most beautiful voice I have ever heard. I have been a fan of her music for as long as I can remember. Her voice is like the voice of an Angel. She has true talent. Not some auto-tune sound that was artificially produced.

Proof:

This has to be one of my favorite songs from her. "No One" and "If I Ain't Got You" are next.

Friday, December 17, 2010

I Couldn't Live Without My Best Friends

"Fresh Squeezed"

"Make Mine Lime"

"Too Rich for You"

"Nicole...Spotted"

"Virtuous Violet"

"Party in the Penthouse"
I love my bestfriend Sabrina. She bought me all these lovely nail polishes for Christmas. I have a huge obsession with nail polish! At $7.99 each, I am very thankful for this amazing gift. I now have 48 nail polishes in my collection.
 


I call him Oxie. This is the green "Ox" Uglydoll. Oxie is absolutely adorable. I have been obsessed with him ever since I got him about 9 hours ago. He's so soft and cuddly. Thank you Eva, so much. I have just found my new love.

I'm so glad to have friends like these. Friends who will go out and spend money on me to make sure I have something to make me happy. I'm so thankful to have Eva and Sabrina in my life. I love them both so much and my life wouldn't be the same without them. Of course I bought them presents too. But I don't think it meant the same to them. This may be the only good thing I get for Christmas. Money is too tight this year.

You should be thankful for your friends. It's hard to find good ones.
Thank God I have two always by my side.
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"A true friend is one who thinks you are a good egg even if you are half-cracked." 
-Author Unknown

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Thoughts #4- Loss of Control


I feel like I've lost control. Over my body, my feelings, and my life.
I don't ever talk about it, but I feel so pathetic and useless without control.

Control is like oxygen to me.

I keep getting painful calf cramps after I run my workout at track. I feel lost. I don't know why this is happening? I know that dehydration and lack of good nutrition can trigger this.  I haven't been eating well or drinking enough water, but I'm scared that even if I do, it won't work and the cramps will come back.

Then my feelings. Yesterday after practice I stayed for the boys basketball game. I wasn't really paying attention but my eye did go to one person: Derek. (Now if you are new to my blog or just haven't read about Derek. You need to. Click the label at the end of this post.) I had those feeling come back again. I don't want to feel them and I refuse to acknowledge them.

You don't have to tell me for me to know that I have lost control over my life. I don't get to decide how or when I am going to do something. I don't get to decide how much money I will spend today because it depends on how much money I even have. If I need something, I can't ask and expect to get it soon. I will have to wait. I asked for my own room when I was in the 5th grade. It's been five fucking years and I still don't have a room to myself. I never have and probably never will unless my siblings go off to college. My life is on it's own road, it's just dragging me with it.


Last night, I came home and I cried. I've been holding back all this anger and sadness and telling everyone that I am okay. But I'm not.
 
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."
-Unknown

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

What I Love About Myself


I Love My...
Smile
Teeth
Hair
Body
Speed (Track)
Personality
Eyelashes
Fast Metabolism
Genetics
Lips
Creativity
Unique Beauty.

Call me conceited, call me narcissistic, tell me I'm full of myself. But I call it confidence. 
More people need to realize that they are beautiful. There's no shame in it if you do.

Update on Track

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Monday was our first day of conditioning. Half the people were missing since there are other sports like Football, Wrestling, Cheerleading, and Basketball that still have practice.
I also didn't have my physical form so I couldn't join practice. I couldn't go today either. But I will be going tomorrow. I really need to get in shape for tryouts and I need to get in shape for my PE exam. We have to run for 20 minutes to get 25 points towards our exam grade. Which is a lot. I'm definitely not excited for exams next week. I'm not excited for track either.

P.S. I saw Derek Monday at his basketball game...it's so weird seeing him again. Brings back feelings I really don't want to feel.


Sunday, December 05, 2010

The Worst Feeling...

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Nervousness. I'm so nervous for track tomorrow. We have our first day of conditioning for the year. We have two weeks of conditioning and then we have Winter break for two weeks. Then it's back to one week of conditioning.
Soon after, it's try-outs.

Where I live, at my school, sports are very important to us. So they want the best of the best to be on each team. So of course (like most schools) there is a Varsity and Junior Varsity team for Track and Field. Tryouts determine which team and what event (Pole Vault, 4x100 relay, 200 Meter Sprint, etc...) is best for you.
Track is usually an open sport where anyone can join and events are chosen for you. But this year, in highschool, it's tryouts. It makes since though...
I don't want to get stuck on a bad team where everyone is really bad and I am better than them. (No cockiness intended.)

Regardless, our first day of conditioning is killing me. The day hasn't even started yet and I'm already dying of nerves! I just hope I can get along with everyone and do good at conditioning.

I'll keep you updated on all that happens. I have exams (mid terms) to study for and lots of homework to catch up on. So I won't post again until Tuesday.

I want those long legs.
I want that outfit.

Saturday, December 04, 2010

My Perfect Dream Guy

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Someone who's nice, funny, smart and open-minded. A romantic, trustworthy, loyal, outgoing guy. Who has an amazing body and even better tan. Cute smile, baseball player's butt, scruffy beard and toned arms. Wealthy, drives a Lamborghini, spoils me, and takes me out to fancy restaurants. 6'1, sexy accent, athletic, dark hair, and of course is amazing in bed.

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I want a guy who can make me feel better and make me feel beautiful. Someone who doesn't get scared when I have my hair in a bun and no makeup on.
Someone who understands me and doesn't want to change me. Someone who can be hilarious in a funny situation, but then completely mature in a serious one. Someone who doesn't mind that I have to have the door closed and the blinds closed tight when I sleep. A guy who likes my short hair and doesn't want me to change it. Someone who isn't afraid to brag about me to his friends. Someone who remembers my birthday, our anniversaries, our first kiss, our first date. A guy who isn't afraid of commitment and remains faithful to me. Someone that I will never lose and will someday marry. Someone I can be happy with for the rest of my life.

I can't wait for the day that I meet this guy.

Friday, December 03, 2010


"A man can stand a lot as long as he can stand himself." 
-Axel Munthe

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A Pregnancy Scare

I'm 15 years old. I would never have sex this young. And the last thing I would ever do is have unprotected sex. That's just plain stupid. But that is exactly what my best friend, Eva, did.

Remember when I posted about how she had sex with her boyfriend "Jackass" and the experience was so awful for her that she cried? Well if you didn't get a chance to read that, please stop and click HERE. Read it, then come back and read this. Because you will be lost if you don't.


Eva had sex. Like I said before, even though she said she will never do it again, and that she will wait, she still did it. She still had sex.
It was even worse this time! She used no protection what-so-ever. The pull out method is not safe, it is way too risky. What's worse is that she might have gotten pregnant.
She told me she was going to buy Plan B without her parents finding out. That didn't work out. So for weeks she kept it a secret while crying herself to sleep and stressing out. Until she couldn't even get out of bed for school [because she was crying so hard.] She told her parents what happened that night and immediately they rushed to get a pregnancy test. That's something a 15 year old girl should NEVER have to do. Turns out she wasn't even pregnant.

As her best friend, I want the best for her. I feel like she is too stupid, irresponsible and horny to realize when she should and should not be doing something. I just wish she would stop and think for once. Instead of letting her vagina, or her boyfriend, Jackass, make the decisions.

Like last time, I don't feel bad for her at all. She let her boyfriend come before her feelings and had sex for him. Once again, she probably wasn't ready. I'm actually kind of glad all this happened. I know it sounds horrible but she learned her lesson and I'm hoping she takes my lead and waits until she is truly ready for sex. And plus I finally get to see her fail. I guess I'm always jealous that she does all these horrible things and karma leaves her alone. But not this time. I don't like to see her fail, but I'm happy to know that she isn't perfect like I imagined.


Sure I'm curious. All the time. I imagine what my first time will be like. How amazing or horrible it might be. It scares me that I might not be good in bed. But at the same time I might be amazing in bed. What if something goes wrong? Or what if it's perfect? It's something I will have to wait to find out. And when I do, I'll have a huge rock on my finger and we'll be on our honeymoon. (Which makes me smile.)

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